it gets so much better.

This past weekend was so fun for Danny and I.  Now that school is over, we are fully focused on the upcoming wedding and, more importantly, our upcoming marriage!  We were all over the place this weekend, getting gifts for our loved ones and getting some last details for the big day.  We felt so accomplished!  Only a couple things left on our "to-do" list.  So satisfying.

If you live here, you  know how hot yesterday was.  I heard in the 100's?  And it was dry heat, too.  Gross.  So we ended the day by jumping in the pool and sitting the spa.  It was perfect.  The sky was orange and the moon sliver came out early.  We played for a while, then just sat in silence enjoying one another and God's presence around us.

On the way home we were talking about God and theology and science- pretty typical for us.  We started talking about heaven and Danny expressed how excited he is for it.  I gulped down the lump in my throat and admitted how scared I am for it.  Maybe scared isn't the right word.  I'm not scared to be there- it's just sad to think about leaving all this behind.  

By that time I had big ol' tears rolling down my face.  We are so in love.  So happy.  So full of joy and so complete.  We laugh, we kiss, we hold hands, we disciple one another and others, we really really really love life.  The thought of it all ending...isn't is sort of sad?  Danny smiled so sweetly and wiped my face clean.  He whispered, "Kay, one day I will see you in heaven and I will know you better than anyone there (with one exception) and I will point to you and say, 'That was my wife!'  And we will be glorified and it will be paradise."  Yes, my love...you are right...

As I was lying in bed later last night I thought of this quote from C.S. Lewis:

Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak.  We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at sea.  We are far too easily pleased.

I know so little of heaven, but what I do know is good.  I am certain that when I'm there, I won't miss life at all.  But for now...Oh, I don't know.  We keep on living, right?  And enjoy the little things like iced chais and sunshine and clear lip gloss and sunsets and holding hands and kisses on the forehead.  

And we remember that from here, it gets so much better.