sorry i lied.

I didn't share with you about my prayer experience yesterday.  But at least I made it in just minutes before it turns to Saturday.

Wednesday I got overwhelmed for the first time at my new job.  Not because of the work load or the people or the bookshelf space I can't wait to fill or the crazy paper-folding machine or the risograph, but because of the reality that God has even given me this responsibility and opportunity in the first place.  Doubts kept creeping in my mind all day- big time questions like Am I effective enough as a woman in ministry  and Can I really do this and Are you sure God???  I kept pushing them out but around every corner of my day there they were again, jumping out at me and knocking me off course.  It was just one of those days I guess.

Anyhow, for youth group on Wednesday we had The Movement from the Dream Center from LA come and lead our service.  It was incredible.  (go read about what they do- it is quite a ministry)  After the service the 50 or so college students who lead this ministry dispersed themselves among our students and prayed.  It was such a beautiful sound- perhaps the best I've ever heard.  The quiet murmurs and the hovering of the Holy Spirit (something I've been meditating on a whole lot lately...remind me to tell you more about that later) was such a powerful experience.  I just stood in the back praying over the conversations that were happening.  Until this girl came up and started praying with me.

She was a leader of the leaders and a learner all the same, just like me.  Without me even telling her where my heart had been that day, she sat there and prayed over every single doubt that had been haunting me.  Affirming me of my ministry and of my call and of my competence and of my influence and even of my beauty.  One of the most powerful prayer experiences I've ever had.  For at least 10 minutes.  We were gripping onto each other's hands.  And praying so hard.  And actually sweating because of it.  And after we said Amen we hugged and I said Thank you, sister and she smiled with her eyes and walked away.

And that was my experience on Wednesday night.

Just what I needed.  Let's do this, God.